Sunday, June 1, 2008
I feel so Blessed today :)

In the past, i used to think that no one care for me, no one love me, no one bother about me. Sometimes i would think that i m having alot my friends around me. but that time i was feeling very lonely even i m in a crowd. So i will just walk around myself just not to be bored. i also duno who i am, what am i doing, so i think that why should i be living in this world. My life is so meaningless. But this is all my thinking in the past.

For now, my thinking is different. :) Today two of my friends ministered to me. They told me alot of words of healing that really heal my wound in my heart. :) They told me that we all love you, we all care for you, we are concern about you. I really thank god for the friends that are given by him.

This Afternoon, when i was at yyb worshiping, i cried when i saw the crucifixtion scene of Jesus. Whenever i saw him been crucified, i will cry for sure, and that even draw me closer to god, because of his great love. While i was crying i saw him holding our sins which is on the cross, and been whacked till he fall down, that time i cried even deeper. I was telling myself. I keep running away from him, escaping from my problems, keep fearing and shutted down myself from my friends of yyb. But he still died on the cross for my sins. That time i felt very guility for what i did. After today i just found out that what my thinking in the past was wrong. I also found out how much they had loved me. Just that i dont bother to open up my heart to them.

After which, i just found out that all my true friends are at yyb. :) After which, i also wanted to thank god that he showed me whats my problems. My problems are at my thinking and my mindset.